SMASH THE SHELL

I vaguely remember having SCA-related project plans 78 years ago, back in February…

But now, it’s all I can do to keep up with work and the gardens. I’ve even had to prioritize within those and let some things die. I am drained and don’t have a lot of emotional or creative capacity left. Might be able to recharge over the winter, but that’s not a certainty.

I don’t even know if those planned projects will ever be relevant again. Once we can meet in person again, the mentality and implementation of the SCA will not be the same. I don’t know if this will be a good or bad thing yet.

All I know is that right now, when I try to think about SCA projects of any sort, including writing, it’s like opening a door to loud, fuzzing TV noise. It’s not an empty room, just interference so complete that I can’t connect with anything in there. It’s not that I don’t care — it’s that I can’t access the capacity to care right now.

I hope people who can are enjoying their digital involvement. Don’t take my lack of participation as a statement about my support. It’s not. I just have nothing left after work and home stuff is handled.